Wednesday, January 31, 2007

I am not perfect...

This morning I woke up happy. My girls were feeling better and were going to go back to school after having 2 sick days. I said my prayers and even read part of an article from the Ensign (a monthly magazine put out by our church that has uplifting stories and articles.) I was feeling great!! I got my girls up and of course they were both complaining that they didn't want to go to school. I wasn't going to let it bother me. I cheerfully helped them along the way UNTIL I had to finish some reading homework with M. She just plain did not want to do it. So, I told her I would not sign it unless she did. It would make me a liar if I put that she read when she didn't. It turned into a major struggle and I lost.......... MY TEMPER!! How can this happen everytime I am trying to do the right thing?? We both ended up crying. She was crying because I raised my voice and was pretty bold with her. I was crying because I did not want this to happen. I want to be the loving mommy that my kids remember when they are older. The kind they want to be like, not the monster I was this morning! After M and I had worked everything out I was still a little upset. So I was slouched over on the couch with my head in my hands, shedding a few more tears. That is when my 8 year old daughter, Katelyn, came up to me and started rubbing my back. She said something so profound .... "Mom, it's going to be okay. We aren't perfect." She understood my feelings of wanting to be the best mom and how I was so disappointed when I didn't achieve that. I got the kids off to the bus stop and then I came home and said a prayer. I just need strength right now. I know that people think that having the baby and the toddlers is hard but honestly my challenge is with the older girls. Are they turning out okay? Do they know how much they are valued and loved? Our oldest daughter is having a little struggle at school with a certain friend. I hope she always knows that "she is a daughter of her Heavenly Father who loves us and we love him." I want my children to have strong self worth and not feel the way I felt as a child. Sometimes it was just a hopeless feeling. Especially the older I got and the struggles I went through. I did not have the backbone of "faith". I hope my children know how much they are loved because even when we have our struggles it is out of love.

Monday, January 29, 2007

I am thankful for....

I made this page over the weekend. I can't believe I am almost caught up with my scrapbooking. This page only took me about 15-20 minutes!!

Sunday, January 28, 2007

Isn't he just the cutest??

3 sick kids and 1 screaming baby....

Today I am staying home from church with 3 sick kids!! My oldest 3 all have fevers of over 101-103 and sore throats. Brayden is extra grumpy today because he was over tired last night from taking him to a Young Women activity. So here I am.............

I guess I can spill the beans now because church should be over before anyone in my ward reads this. I am getting released as Young Women's 1st counselor today. I am being called to be a Young Women Advisor over the Beehives (12 & 13 year olds) AND the Enrichment Leader for our ward. I think that they thought this might give me a little bit of a break but honestly having both of those together will be a lot more work. I am ready for it though. I am finally back to my normal self (whatever that is) and I am getting used to having 5 kids. I was a little sad when the Bishop called me in his office to release me but I know that every calling in the church comes from the Lord and I will do whatever I am asked with a happy heart. After digesting the news I am looking forward to doing the publicity for Enrichment. I have my new little fun machine called the Cricut (pronounced Cricket) and I will be able to make really fun posters with it. I am also looking forward to making the reminder invitations. I also think it will be fun to teach the Beehives 3 Sundays a month. We have 4 new girls coming in the months of March & April, so I will have 5 girls this Spring. The only real difference between the Counselor and Advisor calling is that I am not required to go every Wednesday and to ALL the activities. I will still go to quite a few but I don't have to. I want to stay very involved with these girls. They are my lifeline. I love them and am having such a great experience being in Young Womens. I guess you could say I am living it for myself since I never had the chance to as a girl. I am also going to be working with them on their Personal Progress and that is great because I am trying to earn my Young Womens Recognition Award, too.

I am going to use today to work on family history.... AKA scrapbooking!!! I just finished our Thanksgiving 2006 page today. I can't believe I am almost to December of this year. It's a great feeling. Now I can use more time journaling and writing about memories instead of just trying to get caught up. I'm also available to help anyone with their scrapbooks if they need help. It's very easy to do!! Come over anytime!!

Well, baby B is very sad and it's about time for his next feeding. Did I mention how sweet and cute he is???

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Future Missionary

I took this picture of Brayden on Sunday. I got him this cute little church outfit on clearance and he will only be able to wear it once because his neck is too big for it. It was quite a squeeze!!

In our church the boys that are 19 usually go on a mission. They save up the money or their parents pay for it. They are called anywhere in the world for 2 years. It is a great experience for them and I am looking forward to having 3 "missionaries". It is a blessing to everyone in the family.

Tuesday, January 16, 2007

Another Ice Day.....

Today the kids did not have school due to the ice storm that hit this weekend. The neighborhoods are still really frozen. I could not get out of my driveway if I tried. Bryan barely got back up today after work because even the part that he dug out yesterday was slick. The children have had 5 days off so far and they also have tomorrow off due to the ice not melting. I'm not going nuts yet only because Bryan was home to help up until today. I think I can manage one more day. It's the kids I'm getting worried about. It's tough being stuck indoors, even in the winter.

What is a blessing??

I have several friends who are not of my faith so I thought I would post a link about Priesthood Blessings. I really didn't know how to explain it. Here it is....,8672,1578-1,00.html Hope that helps.

Monday, January 15, 2007

What a weekend....

Friday we started getting an ice storm so I just kept the kids home from school. It was a fun day because Bryan only had to work a couple hours in the morning and then he was home right as the storm was starting. Friday night I started feeling like I was coming down with something because I was just so tired. Then it began...... MASTITIS!!! My fever started right as I was going to bed and it just continued to go up and up. I tried everything to keep it down. By the next morning my fever was up to 103.7 and I was having crazy chills. It was soooooo horrible!! I have only experienced it this bad once before and I never wanted to go through it again. We immediately called my doc and he called in an antibiotic. My fever broke for the first time later on Saturday and then got bad again Saturday night. It is finally under control and it is Monday. I still have mastitis and only time will tell if the antibiotic will work. If it doesn't my doc said he might need to surgically remove it. Let's hope that doesn't have to happen!! Anyway, I am feeling a lot better today and have been out of bed for most of it. Yesterday I spent the entire day in bed and took at least 2 naps. I really have a new appreciation for all the pioneers. When they went through what I have this weekend they would have died. I'm grateful for modern medicine. Even taking a simple little Tylenol is a blessing which they did not have access to.

That is where I have been for awhile. Hopefully I'll be better able to keep my blog updated.

Sunday, January 07, 2007

Brayden's Blessing Day

In our church we do an ordinance called a Baby Blessing when a child is born. It is where the child is officially presented and given a name. Brayden slept through the entire thing and then through sacrament. I was even able to bear my testimony. During the blessing Brayden was blessed to be obedient and reverent. I don't remember much of anything else but I will hang on to those two things. He is such a sweet baby and we are so blessed to have him in our family.

Wednesday, January 03, 2007

Answered Prayers

I just want to take a minute and say how grateful I am for answered prayers. Every prayer we have never goes unanswered. Some take a really long time to realize what the answer is but they always are answered.
A while ago, due to my pride, I lost a couple of really good friends. I said a prayer almost every day that those relationships could be whole again. I am so happy to say that they are and I know they were in answer to what I had been asking.