Sunday, December 31, 2006

Thoughts

I can't believe it's the last day of 2006. The only reason why I can't believe it is because it doesn't really matter to me. Tomorrow will be just like any other day. I have my family, my health, and all that the Lord has blessed me with. Just because it is a New Year doesn't make it any different. One thing I do know is that I DO want to get my life organized again but that has nothing to do with it being a new year.

I just finished reading two books about the Old Testament women, Sarah & Rebecah. I have learned so much!! Those were both really strong women and when I think about it, I don't know if I could ever be that strong. I had a talk with Bryan today about all I learned from them and then he reminded me tonight, as he was leaving to magnify his calling, how I am strong just like those women. I laughed and asked him if I could also have 3 servants to help me with my needs. He looked around at my kids and said "You have 4 servants". Then off he went. He will be back in a couple of hours and I am NOT going to murmur because I believe he is a very great man and just doing what the Lord needs him to do.

Speaking of husbands, have I mentioned how I have married the BEST one ever?? I am soooo critical of him and complain so much but I wouldn't trade him for anything, not even the Cuttlebug!! He is my helpmate and my friend. He gets up with the baby in the middle of the night to change a diaper just so I can sleep 4 minutes more before I have to get up to nurse. He cleans the kitchen for me just so I can feel like the house is not a total disaster. But the most important thing to me is that he honors his Priesthood and is a man who serves the Lord. I think I have taken it for granted for the past 10 years but now I see how important it really is to me. Maybe there are many things that he still needs to learn but he is willing.

Those are my thoughts. Love you!!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Family

As a "mother" life is very busy. I look at my little family and I am so grateful for them. Growing up I could never imagine even having 2 children. I have never really been one with patience. I prayed for patience and Heavenly Father sent me 5 beautiful children. Can I say more??

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas!!!

One thing I learned this year for Christmas is never have a baby right before the holidays. Even though I did my best, it was really hard to be the happy mommy that my family is used to. I have been suffering with the baby blues and a mild form of PPD that this Christmas was really hard for me emotionally. Thankfully I have a WONDERFUL husband who was very helpful with our family traditions. On Christmas Eve I just couldn't emotionally stand it any longer so I went to bed at 8:00pm. My "Dear" Bryan put the kids to bed, cleaned up the living room, and put out ALL the Christmas gifts, including the ones from Santa. It was nice to not be the one to have to do it this year. I just don't think I could have physically done it.

Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas but the real reason we celebrate it is to recognize the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. I'm so glad that the commercial part of it is over for our family. My children got WAY too much this year. I went overboard and my mom did, as usual. Bryan and I decided that next year the kids will only get two gifts from us and only ONE from my mom. Then of course they will get their stocking gifts and presents from each other, etc. We just feel that it was way overdone this year. Part of it was because of the new baby. I wanted them to have a really special Christmas morning but what I found was that they were all happy after just opening up a couple of gifts. After that I think they were just overwhelmed.

Just my thoughts.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Christmas Eve







Every year our family acts out the nativity. This year we had a close "baby Jesus". Our girls always fight about who gets to be Mary but in the end they are both happy because the Angel is fun, too. Andrew was Joseph this year, Thomas was a Shepherd, and daddy was the narrator and the "donkey". Here are some fun pics.....




Tuesday, December 19, 2006

My sweet reindeer!!




Family

I feel so blessed to have my family. Sometimes I gripe, complain, get angry, overwhelmed, etc, but I know I would be completely lost without them. This morning a friend from my ward picked up my boys. For some reason I just didn't want them to go. Right after they were driving away I started bawling and wanted them to come back. I am grateful for the break but I realize now that this is what I love to do. It's a tough job to raise 5 kids all under the age of 8 but it is what I came to this earth to do. I LOVE my children. Now that I am not pregnant I can think clearly again. My girls are growing up and are so smart. My boys are such joys to be around. I love that they all are learning new things each day. I also love how they all welcomed Brayden into the family with open arms. The entire time I was pregnant I said "our baby" and not "my baby". I wanted them to know that they are a part of his life as well.

It's 1:30pm so only 2 1/2 hours until my girls and boys get home. I can't stand this quiet house. Brayden has been sleeping all morning and just waking up to eat. I know I should take a nap but I just don't want to right now. I'll save naps for tomorrow through Monday when Bryan is home to take care of the kids.

I am feeling much better today and able to do some more laundry. Brayden and I are finally getting the nursing thing down to a science. He is the sweetest baby who just started crying so I gotta go!

Monday, December 18, 2006

Lots of stuff....

I want to start by saying thanks to everyone who takes the time to read my blog. I'm sure some of it is boring but it is just about my life.

Today was the first day Bryan had to go back to work. I had to get the girls up by myself and have them get ready for school. "M" and I had a huge struggle and we both ended up in tears. I realized that I couldn't do it on my own. It was sooo hard. I finally got the girls ready and out to their bustop in time. Thank goodness. A friend of mine (or should I say angel) came over right after the girls left and she picked up my boys for the ENTIRE DAY!!! I couldn't believe it. The house was so quiet and I had until 4 pm to be with my baby. Of course Brayden knew something was different. He was used to the noise of the house and just could not get to sleep. He cried for most of the morning. I got a good nap in the afternoon and was feeling refreshed when everyone arrived home at 4pm. Tomorrow another friend of mine is picking up the boys for the morning and then bringing them home for naptime. Beginning Wednesday Bryan has 6 days off work. YAAAAAA. He has to go back the day after Christmas but I am really thinking I will be able to handle it by then. Today I have already physically felt better. My back is a little achey but my abdomen feels much better.

Here is another thought I had tonight. I think I am going to make a family bulletin board. Just like one we have at church and the girls have at school. I am going to use my Cricut to make it fun. Maybe put the dinner menu up for the week, a family calendar, some fun artwork from the kids, etc. I'll change it every week to make it exciting. The more I think about it the more I know it is the right thing to do. Yippeeeeeeeee. What fun it will be for everyone. My goal is to get our house in order. With a family of 7 we need to get on the ball!! I feel like we are just getting by with half the effort we need. I am going to "Super Nanny" my family!!

Little Brayden is such a great baby. He will sleep for a stretch of 4-5 hours at night and then another 3 hour stretch. He really is spoiling us. He has had one rough night so far and it looks like tonight might be rougher than normal. We will get by. It's weird because I do feel more secure in being a mommy than I did 8 years ago. I would have given up on nursing with my first if it was as painful as it is now. One side was so bad this past week that I would just bawl every time he nursed, but since I have experience I know that I just needed to buck up and get over it. Now I can feel that it is getting easier. I am so glad he came into our family. Our kids are so young now that it seems really hard but I know that as they grow older they will love having siblings close to their age and best friends at home. I wasn't really close with any of my sisters or my brother growing up, even though my older sis and I are now best friends, so I want my kids to experience it.

Have I said how much I love my Cricut?? I just got 3 more cartridges off Ebay. I used some of our Christmas money that "my" grandma sent so I don't feel as guilty. Plus I know that I will use these in my family on a regular basis. One that I ordered tonight is called Doodlecharms and has diecuts for every holiday and occasion you can think of. If I was a teacher I would go crazy for this!! I think my stamps are going to be neglected for awhile. There are even 3 cute monkey images I have coming. Shawna, did you hear that?? I will make you something cute with them, I promise.

Well, I'd better get some sleep since Brayden is finally sleeping himself. They say to "sleep when your baby sleeps". I always find that hard because there is so much I want to do once I am not rocking them or nursing them but off to bed I go. I still need to read my scriptures and write 2 more thank you cards.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

What am I doing up???

I know I should be in bed since the baby is asleep and so is the rest of my family. I just wanted to update my blog since I haven't been on here in a few days. Today was a very good day. The baby hasn't been really fussy since that night a few days back. He is growing into his own personality, which is wonderful. He is such a sweet baby and I love him so much!!

Today the kids played and we got a few chores done. I finished up my Christmas cards and now we just need to get them all in the mail. I made 72 of them and took the picture for them today. We just did the kids since I am not up to being in a family picture right now. They turned out really nice and we went down and picked them up from Walmart an hour later. I also sent out all my birth announcements today, which is a big load off my chest as well.

Tomorrow Bryan is going to one of his meetings in the am and then coming back to get the kids ready for church. Then he and the kids will go for the 3 hour block and they will just wait for him to count tithing after church is over. We have asked a Young Women to help us out tomorrow. I know it will be hard for Bryan but I am just not ready to deal with the other children yet. I don't even know if Brayden and I will go next Sunday. It depends on how cold it is and how I am feeling.

Today I have had a lot of pain in my abdomen and it has been very difficult to walk. It's funny because some days I will feel almost back to normal and then the next day it will hit me that I am not normal yet. I wonder how long it will be until I am myself again. I can already feel like my brain is all together. I had a talk with my girls today and I told them that we were going to get some order in this house. I told them there would be no yelling, fighting, whining, screaming, etc. We are going to have our house be a special place and we are ALL going to get along.

Okay, my eyelids are drooping and I still need to read my scriptures. I'll write more tomorrow if I'm up to it. I'm going to try to rest throughout the day until I feel the pain go away.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Our Sweet Baby Boy!!

We have been so blessed by this baby boy. He sleeps so well in his bassinet and lets us get sleep as well. He hardly ever cries and nurses pretty good. I feel so blessed to have all my children and wonderful husband. I know this has been a tough week so far for them. I haven't been very pleasant to live with. I'm sooooo emotional and crying ALL the time. I'm sure they are getting sick of it. This has definitely been the worst I've ever been. I'm hoping it passes soon. The noises are just sooo loud and everything seems to echo. I know that it won't get better until I'm done needing my meds. Hopefully that will also be soon.

Can I just say that I LOVE my Cricut. Bryan gave me my Christmas present early and it was the Cricut that I've been eyeing for awhile. I'm so glad he gave it to me early. It has been nice to be sent to my scrap room when I just cannot handle the noise of reality. I can cut alphabets out of cardstock up to 5 1/2 inches big in a variety of different fonts. It only takes minutes because it is digital. I didn't think that I needed it but I can just tell that it is going to be used A LOT!!! I am going to finish getting my birth announcements finalized tomorrow so I can get them in the mail and also my Chrismas cards sent out, too.

I'm soooo sleepy being on my medication but I know that I need to stay awake to get things in order. Not physically but mentally. Today I watched Runaway Bride and I thought it was pretty funny. I even laughed out loud on some parts.

Monday, December 11, 2006

He's home!!




My sweet little boy, Brayden, is home from the hospital. We arrived yesterday at around 2 in the afternoon. I will write my complete birth story later. Right now I am going to go and take a nap. I'm exhausted!! I'm still majorly recovering and slowly getting there. Brayden was worth EVERY pain I went through and am still going through. Here is a pic or two.........................




Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Here I go....

I thought I would add one post before my big day tomorrow. We leave the house at 5am and the procedure starts at 7:30. Wow!! I still have so much to do but the fatigue has hit me for the day. I don't know how much more I can do. I still need to get the cabbage patch kid "babies" ready to go. I am going to take them all out of their boxes and swaddle them in their blankets. I think they will be easier to transport there and home. I just finished making an extra dinner for my family to eat on Thursday. Tomorrow I am going to start a crock pot before I leave. Friday they can order pizza and Saturday B can make dinner. I think my ward is going to do dinner for me on Sunday night which will be great to have a hot meal the night I get home from the hospital. I know I have all those frozen meals but I still have to prepare them with side dishes. My favorite part of having a baby is getting pampered for at least a few days with dinners. For some reason I am soooo hungry those few days after I get home. If I had more energy I would make some more dinners that are ready to pop in the oven. I think we have enough for about 20 dinners right now and I have ordered more from Supper Thyme that B just needs to pick up this weekend. They are making them for me for a little extra charge. They look yummy, too!! We cheated this week and had one of the meals I prepared. It was Taco Soup and oh, so yummy. It was a little spicy but great!!

This morning our guest toilet completely flooded. I guess it's better today then when I am at the hospital. At least we can deal with it now and lock that door until a plumber comes out next week. The bummer part is that I have a friend coming over in the am to watch the kids and her and her kids will have to go upstairs or use our Masterbathroom. I wanted it to be easy for her. Hopefully it's not too much of a pain.

I hope I'm not forgetting anything. I'm sure I will. Do I bring a book to read?? Or will I just be sleeping on my down time in the hospital. I can't wait to meet our baby boy. I only wish we could agree on a name.... any name!!! I don't have one set name in my head right now. I'm going to try to get a list of 5-10 to take with me and then after we look at him we can decide. Uggggg!! Why are there so many boy cousins in B's side of the family??? We can't use any of those and a lot of them are my favorite names!!!

Wish me luck and love!
Robyn

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Nervous

I am so nervous about this Wednesday. I need to really calm down. I've never known the exact date of delivery before and I just am climbing out of my skin. I haven't really talked to family & friends either in a few days which makes it a bit harder. I know this is such a busy time of year for everyone and I understand.

Today is B's last day to work on a Saturday!! We are going to party!! It has been great financially to have him do this for the past 1 1/2 years but it kind of gets old to have to have him gone all the time, too. It will be nice when he opens his practice this summer. I'm sure there will be new kinds of stresses. He is going to put me to work as soon as I have the baby. There is a lot to be done that he won't be able to do working fulltime. He says it's a "paid" position. I just have to laugh at that. I don't need to be paid to help out my husband. Although, there is this cool scrapbooking machine called the "Cricut" that I have been eyeing now.

I'd better get off my duff and get my chores done today. I am stuck at home but I am going to make the best of it. I want to play with the kids, get my laundry done, and scrapbook. In any order!!

Friday, December 01, 2006

I'm still here

I haven't had the baby yet, thank goodness. My date is this Wednesday in 5 days. I cannot believe the time is getting this close. Now I am just hoping that I don't go early. We have it all worked out to a T. B works tomorrow so it would not be a good day to go. He is also having a Christmas party with his 4 assistants. It sounds like a lot of fun and I don't want to mess things up. I am contracting tonight but I am really just trying to ignore it. I'm sure it is just false labor again.

It has been fun having the kids and B home for the past 4 days. We have been ice/snowed in. We actually ran a few errands this evening but couldn't pull back in our garage because of the steep incline of our driveway. It was pretty scary. We just parked on the front curb and walked up. B salted it better so now it is pretty much melted. I hope it finishes melting tomorrow so we can go to church on Sunday morning. I am not one to drive on icy roads at all. It scares the jeepers out of me!!

I am so excited because I have got so much scrapbooking done this week. I am up to the beginning of the school year. I'm only a few months behind. My goal is to get caught up before Wednesday AND have a good start on the new baby's album. So then I just need to add the pictures to the pages. It is an amazing feeling to be working on current pictures. I have been about 2-4 years behind for 6 years now. I'm glad to be getting caught up. I will be able to get more creative with my picture taking again.

Okay, really weird but I keep feeling like my water is going to break at any minute. That baby is sooo active right now and VERY low in my pelvic area. I'm just waiting to hear a big "POP". I hope I don't because we are not prepared for this!!

Anyway, I hope I have not offended anyone lately. I feel like I have been so quick to voice my opinions and "stand up for what I believe in" that I have been offending people in the process. I'm going to start just keeping my mouth shut unless it is something that needs to be said. I also am going to spend less time on some of my internet boards. They are just big time wasters and my family needs most of my attention right now and so do my stamps!!