Sunday, December 31, 2006

Thoughts

I can't believe it's the last day of 2006. The only reason why I can't believe it is because it doesn't really matter to me. Tomorrow will be just like any other day. I have my family, my health, and all that the Lord has blessed me with. Just because it is a New Year doesn't make it any different. One thing I do know is that I DO want to get my life organized again but that has nothing to do with it being a new year.

I just finished reading two books about the Old Testament women, Sarah & Rebecah. I have learned so much!! Those were both really strong women and when I think about it, I don't know if I could ever be that strong. I had a talk with Bryan today about all I learned from them and then he reminded me tonight, as he was leaving to magnify his calling, how I am strong just like those women. I laughed and asked him if I could also have 3 servants to help me with my needs. He looked around at my kids and said "You have 4 servants". Then off he went. He will be back in a couple of hours and I am NOT going to murmur because I believe he is a very great man and just doing what the Lord needs him to do.

Speaking of husbands, have I mentioned how I have married the BEST one ever?? I am soooo critical of him and complain so much but I wouldn't trade him for anything, not even the Cuttlebug!! He is my helpmate and my friend. He gets up with the baby in the middle of the night to change a diaper just so I can sleep 4 minutes more before I have to get up to nurse. He cleans the kitchen for me just so I can feel like the house is not a total disaster. But the most important thing to me is that he honors his Priesthood and is a man who serves the Lord. I think I have taken it for granted for the past 10 years but now I see how important it really is to me. Maybe there are many things that he still needs to learn but he is willing.

Those are my thoughts. Love you!!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Family

As a "mother" life is very busy. I look at my little family and I am so grateful for them. Growing up I could never imagine even having 2 children. I have never really been one with patience. I prayed for patience and Heavenly Father sent me 5 beautiful children. Can I say more??

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas!!!

One thing I learned this year for Christmas is never have a baby right before the holidays. Even though I did my best, it was really hard to be the happy mommy that my family is used to. I have been suffering with the baby blues and a mild form of PPD that this Christmas was really hard for me emotionally. Thankfully I have a WONDERFUL husband who was very helpful with our family traditions. On Christmas Eve I just couldn't emotionally stand it any longer so I went to bed at 8:00pm. My "Dear" Bryan put the kids to bed, cleaned up the living room, and put out ALL the Christmas gifts, including the ones from Santa. It was nice to not be the one to have to do it this year. I just don't think I could have physically done it.

Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas but the real reason we celebrate it is to recognize the birth of our Savior, Jesus Christ. I'm so glad that the commercial part of it is over for our family. My children got WAY too much this year. I went overboard and my mom did, as usual. Bryan and I decided that next year the kids will only get two gifts from us and only ONE from my mom. Then of course they will get their stocking gifts and presents from each other, etc. We just feel that it was way overdone this year. Part of it was because of the new baby. I wanted them to have a really special Christmas morning but what I found was that they were all happy after just opening up a couple of gifts. After that I think they were just overwhelmed.

Just my thoughts.

Sunday, December 24, 2006

Christmas Eve







Every year our family acts out the nativity. This year we had a close "baby Jesus". Our girls always fight about who gets to be Mary but in the end they are both happy because the Angel is fun, too. Andrew was Joseph this year, Thomas was a Shepherd, and daddy was the narrator and the "donkey". Here are some fun pics.....




Tuesday, December 19, 2006

My sweet reindeer!!




Family

I feel so blessed to have my family. Sometimes I gripe, complain, get angry, overwhelmed, etc, but I know I would be completely lost without them. This morning a friend from my ward picked up my boys. For some reason I just didn't want them to go. Right after they were driving away I started bawling and wanted them to come back. I am grateful for the break but I realize now that this is what I love to do. It's a tough job to raise 5 kids all under the age of 8 but it is what I came to this earth to do. I LOVE my children. Now that I am not pregnant I can think clearly again. My girls are growing up and are so smart. My boys are such joys to be around. I love that they all are learning new things each day. I also love how they all welcomed Brayden into the family with open arms. The entire time I was pregnant I said "our baby" and not "my baby". I wanted them to know that they are a part of his life as well.

It's 1:30pm so only 2 1/2 hours until my girls and boys get home. I can't stand this quiet house. Brayden has been sleeping all morning and just waking up to eat. I know I should take a nap but I just don't want to right now. I'll save naps for tomorrow through Monday when Bryan is home to take care of the kids.

I am feeling much better today and able to do some more laundry. Brayden and I are finally getting the nursing thing down to a science. He is the sweetest baby who just started crying so I gotta go!

Monday, December 18, 2006

Lots of stuff....

I want to start by saying thanks to everyone who takes the time to read my blog. I'm sure some of it is boring but it is just about my life.

Today was the first day Bryan had to go back to work. I had to get the girls up by myself and have them get ready for school. "M" and I had a huge struggle and we both ended up in tears. I realized that I couldn't do it on my own. It was sooo hard. I finally got the girls ready and out to their bustop in time. Thank goodness. A friend of mine (or should I say angel) came over right after the girls left and she picked up my boys for the ENTIRE DAY!!! I couldn't believe it. The house was so quiet and I had until 4 pm to be with my baby. Of course Brayden knew something was different. He was used to the noise of the house and just could not get to sleep. He cried for most of the morning. I got a good nap in the afternoon and was feeling refreshed when everyone arrived home at 4pm. Tomorrow another friend of mine is picking up the boys for the morning and then bringing them home for naptime. Beginning Wednesday Bryan has 6 days off work. YAAAAAA. He has to go back the day after Christmas but I am really thinking I will be able to handle it by then. Today I have already physically felt better. My back is a little achey but my abdomen feels much better.

Here is another thought I had tonight. I think I am going to make a family bulletin board. Just like one we have at church and the girls have at school. I am going to use my Cricut to make it fun. Maybe put the dinner menu up for the week, a family calendar, some fun artwork from the kids, etc. I'll change it every week to make it exciting. The more I think about it the more I know it is the right thing to do. Yippeeeeeeeee. What fun it will be for everyone. My goal is to get our house in order. With a family of 7 we need to get on the ball!! I feel like we are just getting by with half the effort we need. I am going to "Super Nanny" my family!!

Little Brayden is such a great baby. He will sleep for a stretch of 4-5 hours at night and then another 3 hour stretch. He really is spoiling us. He has had one rough night so far and it looks like tonight might be rougher than normal. We will get by. It's weird because I do feel more secure in being a mommy than I did 8 years ago. I would have given up on nursing with my first if it was as painful as it is now. One side was so bad this past week that I would just bawl every time he nursed, but since I have experience I know that I just needed to buck up and get over it. Now I can feel that it is getting easier. I am so glad he came into our family. Our kids are so young now that it seems really hard but I know that as they grow older they will love having siblings close to their age and best friends at home. I wasn't really close with any of my sisters or my brother growing up, even though my older sis and I are now best friends, so I want my kids to experience it.

Have I said how much I love my Cricut?? I just got 3 more cartridges off Ebay. I used some of our Christmas money that "my" grandma sent so I don't feel as guilty. Plus I know that I will use these in my family on a regular basis. One that I ordered tonight is called Doodlecharms and has diecuts for every holiday and occasion you can think of. If I was a teacher I would go crazy for this!! I think my stamps are going to be neglected for awhile. There are even 3 cute monkey images I have coming. Shawna, did you hear that?? I will make you something cute with them, I promise.

Well, I'd better get some sleep since Brayden is finally sleeping himself. They say to "sleep when your baby sleeps". I always find that hard because there is so much I want to do once I am not rocking them or nursing them but off to bed I go. I still need to read my scriptures and write 2 more thank you cards.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

What am I doing up???

I know I should be in bed since the baby is asleep and so is the rest of my family. I just wanted to update my blog since I haven't been on here in a few days. Today was a very good day. The baby hasn't been really fussy since that night a few days back. He is growing into his own personality, which is wonderful. He is such a sweet baby and I love him so much!!

Today the kids played and we got a few chores done. I finished up my Christmas cards and now we just need to get them all in the mail. I made 72 of them and took the picture for them today. We just did the kids since I am not up to being in a family picture right now. They turned out really nice and we went down and picked them up from Walmart an hour later. I also sent out all my birth announcements today, which is a big load off my chest as well.

Tomorrow Bryan is going to one of his meetings in the am and then coming back to get the kids ready for church. Then he and the kids will go for the 3 hour block and they will just wait for him to count tithing after church is over. We have asked a Young Women to help us out tomorrow. I know it will be hard for Bryan but I am just not ready to deal with the other children yet. I don't even know if Brayden and I will go next Sunday. It depends on how cold it is and how I am feeling.

Today I have had a lot of pain in my abdomen and it has been very difficult to walk. It's funny because some days I will feel almost back to normal and then the next day it will hit me that I am not normal yet. I wonder how long it will be until I am myself again. I can already feel like my brain is all together. I had a talk with my girls today and I told them that we were going to get some order in this house. I told them there would be no yelling, fighting, whining, screaming, etc. We are going to have our house be a special place and we are ALL going to get along.

Okay, my eyelids are drooping and I still need to read my scriptures. I'll write more tomorrow if I'm up to it. I'm going to try to rest throughout the day until I feel the pain go away.

Thursday, December 14, 2006

Our Sweet Baby Boy!!

We have been so blessed by this baby boy. He sleeps so well in his bassinet and lets us get sleep as well. He hardly ever cries and nurses pretty good. I feel so blessed to have all my children and wonderful husband. I know this has been a tough week so far for them. I haven't been very pleasant to live with. I'm sooooo emotional and crying ALL the time. I'm sure they are getting sick of it. This has definitely been the worst I've ever been. I'm hoping it passes soon. The noises are just sooo loud and everything seems to echo. I know that it won't get better until I'm done needing my meds. Hopefully that will also be soon.

Can I just say that I LOVE my Cricut. Bryan gave me my Christmas present early and it was the Cricut that I've been eyeing for awhile. I'm so glad he gave it to me early. It has been nice to be sent to my scrap room when I just cannot handle the noise of reality. I can cut alphabets out of cardstock up to 5 1/2 inches big in a variety of different fonts. It only takes minutes because it is digital. I didn't think that I needed it but I can just tell that it is going to be used A LOT!!! I am going to finish getting my birth announcements finalized tomorrow so I can get them in the mail and also my Chrismas cards sent out, too.

I'm soooo sleepy being on my medication but I know that I need to stay awake to get things in order. Not physically but mentally. Today I watched Runaway Bride and I thought it was pretty funny. I even laughed out loud on some parts.

Monday, December 11, 2006

He's home!!




My sweet little boy, Brayden, is home from the hospital. We arrived yesterday at around 2 in the afternoon. I will write my complete birth story later. Right now I am going to go and take a nap. I'm exhausted!! I'm still majorly recovering and slowly getting there. Brayden was worth EVERY pain I went through and am still going through. Here is a pic or two.........................




Tuesday, December 05, 2006

Here I go....

I thought I would add one post before my big day tomorrow. We leave the house at 5am and the procedure starts at 7:30. Wow!! I still have so much to do but the fatigue has hit me for the day. I don't know how much more I can do. I still need to get the cabbage patch kid "babies" ready to go. I am going to take them all out of their boxes and swaddle them in their blankets. I think they will be easier to transport there and home. I just finished making an extra dinner for my family to eat on Thursday. Tomorrow I am going to start a crock pot before I leave. Friday they can order pizza and Saturday B can make dinner. I think my ward is going to do dinner for me on Sunday night which will be great to have a hot meal the night I get home from the hospital. I know I have all those frozen meals but I still have to prepare them with side dishes. My favorite part of having a baby is getting pampered for at least a few days with dinners. For some reason I am soooo hungry those few days after I get home. If I had more energy I would make some more dinners that are ready to pop in the oven. I think we have enough for about 20 dinners right now and I have ordered more from Supper Thyme that B just needs to pick up this weekend. They are making them for me for a little extra charge. They look yummy, too!! We cheated this week and had one of the meals I prepared. It was Taco Soup and oh, so yummy. It was a little spicy but great!!

This morning our guest toilet completely flooded. I guess it's better today then when I am at the hospital. At least we can deal with it now and lock that door until a plumber comes out next week. The bummer part is that I have a friend coming over in the am to watch the kids and her and her kids will have to go upstairs or use our Masterbathroom. I wanted it to be easy for her. Hopefully it's not too much of a pain.

I hope I'm not forgetting anything. I'm sure I will. Do I bring a book to read?? Or will I just be sleeping on my down time in the hospital. I can't wait to meet our baby boy. I only wish we could agree on a name.... any name!!! I don't have one set name in my head right now. I'm going to try to get a list of 5-10 to take with me and then after we look at him we can decide. Uggggg!! Why are there so many boy cousins in B's side of the family??? We can't use any of those and a lot of them are my favorite names!!!

Wish me luck and love!
Robyn

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Nervous

I am so nervous about this Wednesday. I need to really calm down. I've never known the exact date of delivery before and I just am climbing out of my skin. I haven't really talked to family & friends either in a few days which makes it a bit harder. I know this is such a busy time of year for everyone and I understand.

Today is B's last day to work on a Saturday!! We are going to party!! It has been great financially to have him do this for the past 1 1/2 years but it kind of gets old to have to have him gone all the time, too. It will be nice when he opens his practice this summer. I'm sure there will be new kinds of stresses. He is going to put me to work as soon as I have the baby. There is a lot to be done that he won't be able to do working fulltime. He says it's a "paid" position. I just have to laugh at that. I don't need to be paid to help out my husband. Although, there is this cool scrapbooking machine called the "Cricut" that I have been eyeing now.

I'd better get off my duff and get my chores done today. I am stuck at home but I am going to make the best of it. I want to play with the kids, get my laundry done, and scrapbook. In any order!!

Friday, December 01, 2006

I'm still here

I haven't had the baby yet, thank goodness. My date is this Wednesday in 5 days. I cannot believe the time is getting this close. Now I am just hoping that I don't go early. We have it all worked out to a T. B works tomorrow so it would not be a good day to go. He is also having a Christmas party with his 4 assistants. It sounds like a lot of fun and I don't want to mess things up. I am contracting tonight but I am really just trying to ignore it. I'm sure it is just false labor again.

It has been fun having the kids and B home for the past 4 days. We have been ice/snowed in. We actually ran a few errands this evening but couldn't pull back in our garage because of the steep incline of our driveway. It was pretty scary. We just parked on the front curb and walked up. B salted it better so now it is pretty much melted. I hope it finishes melting tomorrow so we can go to church on Sunday morning. I am not one to drive on icy roads at all. It scares the jeepers out of me!!

I am so excited because I have got so much scrapbooking done this week. I am up to the beginning of the school year. I'm only a few months behind. My goal is to get caught up before Wednesday AND have a good start on the new baby's album. So then I just need to add the pictures to the pages. It is an amazing feeling to be working on current pictures. I have been about 2-4 years behind for 6 years now. I'm glad to be getting caught up. I will be able to get more creative with my picture taking again.

Okay, really weird but I keep feeling like my water is going to break at any minute. That baby is sooo active right now and VERY low in my pelvic area. I'm just waiting to hear a big "POP". I hope I don't because we are not prepared for this!!

Anyway, I hope I have not offended anyone lately. I feel like I have been so quick to voice my opinions and "stand up for what I believe in" that I have been offending people in the process. I'm going to start just keeping my mouth shut unless it is something that needs to be said. I also am going to spend less time on some of my internet boards. They are just big time wasters and my family needs most of my attention right now and so do my stamps!!

Monday, November 27, 2006

Burst of energy....

I don't know if it is because the baby will be here in 9 days or because the bug guy will be here at noon but I have been cleaning like a mad woman today. I've already cleaned out my walk in closet, my bathroom, my bedroom, and I've vacuumed that room, too. All I need to do now is finish up in the living room and vacuum. I want to scrapbook today but I'm not going to let myself until I get my chores done.

I forgot to add to my blog that a Young Woman babysat for me on Wednesday while I was at my dr apt and she totallly cleaned my house. She had all my kids sweeping and scrubbing my kitchen. The place sparkled when I returned. We will be getting her again! What a wonderful day that turned out to be.

I want to do a really fun FHE tonight because it might be the last one we have with just the 4 kids. We always have the normal one with our normal agenda, including conducting sheet. I'll have to brainstorm today to think of something that the kids will remember for a long time.

Sunday, November 26, 2006

Checking in.....

Wow, I have not written in so long. I just have not really felt like it. On Wednesday morning one of the Young Women in my ward threw a surprise baby shower. It was really fun & I was totally surprised! There were about 4 adults there and 4 youth plus my kids. I think a lot of people forgot because it was the first day of a holiday break. We still had a blast. I am just honored that they would do two of these for me. I am so new in this ward and just getting to know the adults.

On Thanksgiving we just had a family day at home. B cooked the turkey and I made everything else. I made my mom's famous fruit salad and everything else was out of boxes or cans. I think as the kids get older we will start cooking from scratch more. Doesn't make sense to me know to spend all day in the kitchen when the kids don't really even know the difference.

Friday I got up at 3:45 am to go Black Friday shopping. Yes, I am one of those. It doesn't mean that I am into the whole commercial thing but it does help us to save money and that is the smartest thing for our growing family. I saved $300 just by going to Walmart and Target that early. I am completely done with all my shopping and I have everything wrapped and ready to be put under the tree. It is a great load off my shoulders because we have so many other things to prepare for in the next 2 weeks. I made a few gifts for family this year and they are all packaged up and ready to be sent as well.

I have my scheduled c-section a week from this Wednesday. My doctor told me that he could do it anytime before then as well because of the pain and contractions I have been having. He asked me if I wanted a Thanksgiving baby and I told him "NO!" I am just not emotionally ready even though I'd better get there soon. We are going to try to hold off until next Wednesday. My dr said that this coming Friday would also be a good date because I will be officially 38 weeks. It just seems too soon!! I'm just going to hang in there.

Well, that's all that has been going on.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

You've got to fight......

For your right............ to PARTY!!! Okay, that's not what I really want to say but at least the first few words are. Something interesting happened to me today. I was on one of my pregnancy boards on the internet and I noticed that a lot of the girls on there were typing out swear words differently. So even though they weren't spelled the same you could sound them out and they would sound just as bad. Frankly I am just tired of it! I don't want to have to read it and I don't want my children seeing it either. I posted a thread about how I would appreciate it if people would watch what they say. I said it VERY politely. I mentioned that I should be able to have a warning if there is a post that contains profanity just like I would on TV with the rating system. I received some support from a few moms but it got really ugly. I was accused of censorship, etc. I felt really disappointed about it this morning and decided that if that is the way it was going to be on that board then I would just not go there anymore. This afternoon I received an e-mail from the moderator of the entire list (over 10,000 people on the list), and she told me that profanity was against the TOS of this board and that I was well within my rights to voice my opinion. She then told me how sorry she was and that she agreed with me. She is looking into it further and will take action if necessary.

Okay, my whole point is that I stood up for what I believed in but then I felt bad about it by the response I received. Now I know that I did do the right thing. We are asked to stand up for what we believe in even if it is not the popular opinion. I hope that I am able to teach my children this principle in life. I hope they will be the one that leaves the room when that time arises.

Another example...... After I had gone through the temple and when I was first married I worked at a large hardware store. I worked in the back with the truckers & receiving department. I actually LOVED that job. I had so much fun there and I learned so much. Well, my boss would swear A LOT and it would really bother me. I was having a review with the General Store Manager and it came up. I was not tattling but I thought that it needed to be discussed. The next day my boss came up to me and apologized. He said that he was in the wrong and should never have been speaking that way around anyone, especially a lady. Working conditions were so much better after that. I know a lot of my friends who work in places where this type of profanity is normal and they just get used to it. WE DO NOT HAVE to get used to anything that is wrong. That is my thought for the day!

Monday, November 20, 2006

So grateful for......

The ordinances of the gospel. I was just watching A Baby Story where the little girl was given a blessing and a Hebrew name. After the ceremony the Priest went up to the pulpit and whipped out a shirt for the baby that said "I got my Hebrew name at ........... Church". Can you imagine the Bishop of your ward doing that after a baby blessing? "Oh, by the way, we like to give our babies a t-shirt that says 'I received my blessing in _____ 1st Ward". I am so grateful of the sacredness of the ordinances that happen in our church.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

My life is so interesting.....

Not a moments rest for me! I spent the morning in Labor & Delivery because I was having contractions all night long. I couldn't even sleep through them! The good thing is that there is no change in me. I am still dilated to a 1 and 50% effaced. The baby is only at a -1 station. When I was at the hospital my contractions were showing up but only 10 minutes apart. They were pretty painful. I was discharged at 12:00 this afternoon and I am sooo glad. I am not ready to have my baby. There is still sooo much to do. They told me that if I was in labor or if I go into labor they are not going to stop them because I am 36 weeks along. I guess I will just have to deal with all these contractions for a while. The contractions have slowed down a lot since I've been home and I am sooo glad. I feel so much better!! I hope they stay this way.

Last night I went to Supperthyme and made 13 dinners that are all sitting in my freezer ready to cook. I am so excited to eat them all. They look really yummy and will feed my entire family with some leftovers for lunch the next day. I am going to try to go one more time before the baby comes so I can have a month's supply of dinners. I think it will help to have food ready to go after the baby is born.

I am back in the scrapbooking mode and I want to get caught up. Do you think I can get July-November 2006 all done by next week??? July has our family reunion on it so it has many, many pictures to scrap. I know I will be keeping those ones very simple. I will upload a page I made last night later today. It is sooo cute! I love the paper I used. It is not Stampin' Up! (SHOCKER) but a Close to my Heart kit. They have nice stuff for scrapbooking. I can say that now without any guilt!! Anyway, I am going to try to scrap today since I want to take it easy. What a fun and relaxing thing to do, right?? Do you want to come over??

Friday, November 17, 2006

I picked you.....

The other day I was driving with my boys just running some errands when "A" and I started talking about Heaven. I asked him if he could remember living with Jesus and he said yes. I asked him what else he remembered and he said simply.................. "I picked you." I asked him what he meant and he said that he picked me up in Heaven to be his mommy. It was sooooo sweet and soooo touching. What precious things children are.

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

Christmas is coming......

The goose is getting fat..... please to put a penny in the old man's hat.

I'm sorry but that song just got stuck in my head. Last night I stayed up and wrapped some of the presents I have bought for the kids for Christmas. My goal is to be completely done by next Friday night. I am going Black Friday shopping with my friend, Ranae. I have already seen the ads, know what I want, have a budget, and it's off we go. I really hope I can get some of those Cabbage Patch Kids Special Edition dolls. "M" is just so into babies. She has one CBK now, she will get one when the baby is born, and I think she'll get one from Santa and one from us. She will have a nice little CBK family! I still played with Cabbage Patch Kids up until I was 12. "K" wants one, too, but I think this might be one of the last years she gets one. She is growing into such a sweet little girl, almost a Young Woman. She is polite, has great manners, and wants to please others. If she ever got her card pulled or a checkmark in school that would be the end of it!

Today is such a yucky day. It rained all night and now is rainy and bitter cold. I kept "K" home from school today because she had a stomach ache in the middle of the night and is still not feeling great. I know exactly how she feels. Yesterday my stomach hurt so bad that I could hardly walk. I was having quite a few contractions and just the pains of pregnancy. I hope today is better because there is so much I need to do.

Tonight is Young Womens and we are having a "Mini Standard's Night" for them. The big Standard's Night will be held by the Stake in January. Ours is going to be low-key and just fun. I am over "Media". I am sooo excited to present my portion. I am going to have a big bowl of vanilla ice cream and talk about how that is after we take the Sacrament each week, repent, etc. Then, I have all these CUTE little presents wrapped up with wrapping paper that I stamped myself, thank you very much! I worked really hard to make sure they were beautiful with ribbon & matching 3x3 cards. Each girl is going to "ooooo and ahhhhh" over them. Then I will let a YW pick one and ask her if she wants to open it. In the card I am going to have a quote from President Hinckley about the fifth of the world or media. Then when the YW opens up the gift she will find either dirt, rocks, bark, twigs, weeks, dead leaves. I will have her come up and add that to my Sundae. My point will be that Satan does his best to wrap up the evil things of the world in beautiful packages and sometimes the tempation is just too much and we want to see what is inside. For example, some of the commercials on TV for the programs or movies really intice us. Once we are watching them it is too late and our Spirit has already recieved some of the fifth.

I hope that all makes sense. I only have 10 minutes so I am going to have to be brief. For the dessert the girls are going to get to eat a real Sundae that we are going to have ready with crushed Oreos (dirt), and gummy worms. Hopefully they will remember this visual aid everytime they are listening to music, watching TV, or playing on the internet.

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

22 days to go......

The countdown is here and ticking away!! I cannot believe that our entire life is going to change 3 weeks from tomorrow. It changes everytime a new baby comes into our lives. I imagine it will be a little hectic at first but we will fall into a nice routine. It's so peaceful when a new baby comes to our house because the older kids will try to speak quieter and they will be totally focused on the baby. I'm sure they will be a great help. My concern is with "T" who will be just two weeks shy of being 2 years old. He is a handful right now, but in a good way. He needs lots of attention and has just switched to being a "momma's boy" from being a "daddy's boy" for the past 8 months. He just comes up to me and says "Hold you", which means he wants me to hold him. Of course I can't help but love it since he wanted nothing to do with me for soooo long. My only concern is when the baby gets here. My heart is already breaking for the feelings of abandonment he is going to have. He will want me to hold him but I know I will be too tired and not physically able to do it. I hope he doesn't feel to sad. It will be fine when the girls are home from school but I know that during the day will be a challenge. "A" will be just fine. He is going to be 5 in March so he is very self sufficient.

I asked "B" for a blessing last night. I haven't received it yet but I know I need it. The other night I couldn't even sleep because I thought of everything that might go wrong with this surgery. I cannot even imagine my children growing up without their mommy. I just hope and pray that I can make it through this and be able to be the same mommy they knew before the c-section. I've just had so many great births that I don't even know what to expect. I seriously have not been this scared before a birth. With my first I didn't even get nervous until I was about ready to have "K". I wonder if it is because I know the exact day with this one and the other ones I did not.

On a happier note. I really am excited to have a little baby boy. I love it when they are newborns and want to snuggle with you all the time. "T" really only wants to be held on his terms, which usually means when I am busy with something else. "A" is a big snuggler but wants to snuggle in the middle of the night when he sneaks in my bed. That is a whole different post about how my children ALWAYS end up in bed with us. I was stressing last night because "A" got in bed with us at just 1:00am. I said to "B" that he cannot be doing this when the baby is here. Maybe we should just set up his bed in our room so he feels safe but is not in our bed. I think "A" also slept in our room when "T" was born because he just needed us. I don't mind if my children want to be close to me. "K" got in our bed until she was almost 5 and now she just comes down when she has a bad dream. She is old enough now that I can just take her back up and tuck her in. It's funny how we forget how tough they were when they were little. "K" is the easiest child now and we never would have known it going through her life up until she was 5. She was our fit thrower. She is so gentle and kind now. I guess it just shows us that we have to do all we can when they are young and they will turn out okay even if, at the time, it seems like they will not be.

Monday, November 13, 2006

Who's moody???

For the past 4 or 5 days I have been super moody and snappy with everyone in my family. I have noticed that it really has effected the mood in our home. How can the Spirit dwell here when there is so much contention? Last night I was pretty bad and had just about had it with my 6 year old "M". She seems to be at a challenging age and is JUST like me. I finally got them to settle down in their beds and after about an hour I just felt really guilty. I decided to go in the girl's room and just snuggle with both of them, even if they were asleep. Well, I went in there and "M" was wide awake sitting up in bed. I asked her what was wrong and she said that she was just thinking about how she never wanted to go to the ocean again. I asked her why and she said because of sharks. For some reason she was having scary thoughts and couldn't get to sleep. I layed down beside her and told her this story that I just made up from the top of my head. Here is how it went........

Once upon a time there was a sweet little girl who had a mom who would give her anything that she wanted except one thing...... CHOCOLATE. The little girl came up to her mom one day and said "Mom, can I have a chocolate chip cookie?" The mom answered "I'm sorry honey but I don't want to give you chocolate but I will take you to Target in the morning and you can get that $250 horse that you want that you can sit on and it looks like it is real." The little girl said, "Okay, I guess that sounds fine." So the next day she got her pony and was sitting in her room playing with it but something was missing. So she went up to her mom and said "Thanks so much for my new pony but I would really like a chocolate chip cookie". The mom just looked at her and said "How about if we go to the store and get you a Barbie Playhouse that you can really play inside of with a matching bed and a pink lamp?" The little girl said "that sounds nice". So that night she sat in her new playhouse but was still not as happy as she could be. The next morning she went up to her mom and said, "Mom, thanks so much for my new Barbie Playhouse, it's really nice but I really, really want a chocolate chip cookie." Her mom said "Here is $50, let's go get you some new Polly Pockets and Littlest Pet Shops". The little girl took the money and said "Okay". Later that night she sat in her playhouse playing with all her new toys and she thought that something was missing. She went up to her mom and said "Mom, can I just have a chocolate chip cookie??" The mom answered, "Well, if you are willing to take back all the toys that we bought to the store I guess I can make you a batch of cookies & milk, while we sit and snuggle and talk on the couch." The little girl thought for a second and said "Yes, that is what I want". So they took back all those great toys that cost sooooo much money and they sat on the couch snuggling and eating chocolate chip cookies. The little girl looked up at her mom and said "I guess money could buy us anything in the world but that could never replace what a chocolate cookie & time with you give me............... LOVE".

My daughter LOVED that story and I had to repeat it tonight to my 8 year old, who said she would have rather have kept all the toys instead of the cookie. I was promted to tell that story to her and I realized why later. Our life gets so wrapped up in the material things of the world that it seems like it would be easier just to buy our children's happiness when all they really want is our love and attention. I guess it was a guilt-promoted story. "M" just really needs more hugs than anything else. It melts away her anger and sassiness.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Promted....

I was just reading the blog of a friend of mine (hi Jill) when I realized that I need to share my conversion story on my blog. I have been so blessed by having the gospel in my life that I would be ungrateful if I didn't share it with everyone who takes the time to read this.

My story starts when I was just 22. I had about the worst year of my life when I was 21 that I was ready for some change in it. My dad died of alcholism, I joined the Air Force and got medically discharged, and some other personal problems that I will not go into. I decided to just take a break from all of it and move to Utah to live with my sister, Christy, and her family. I got a job working at a 7-11 and was just sort of hanging out in a limbo in life. Not really any direction to go. I worked with a girl who was just about to get married and she was the happiest, sweetest thing you could ever meet. The funny thing now is that I can't even remember her name and I'm not even sure if she knows that I was baptized. One day I was working with her and she was just smiling away so I asked her why she was so happy. She told me it was because of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. I continued to ask her more and more questions. When I got home that day I was really confused so I asked my sister, who was an inactive member of the church at the time, to have the missionaries come over so I could talk to them. The first discussion went really well but I was still very confused. After the second discussion the missionaries asked me to read a passage from the Book of Mormon which was Moroni 10:3-5. Then they asked me to pray about it and ask if what I was reading was true. Later that night I was home alone so I thought it was the perfect opportunity to read from that book. I read what they asked and then quietly kneeled and prayed if it was true. It was amazing because a warm sensation came throughout my body and I knew that was I had just read was true. I couldn't believe it. One thing that I want to add is that the only way to know if the Book of Mormon is true is to read about it and then ask for yourself. Noone forced me to do anything I was not willing to do and I came to my own conclusion.

The next discussion was my 3rd and the missionaries asked if I was ready to be baptized. I told them no and didn't say anything else. I finally committed to being baptized after my next discussion and have never looked back since. My life was not easy before I was baptized but I knew I was taking the right step in my life. Before I joined I never really knew what the purpose of life was. The Gospel of Jesus Christ has answered all of my questions. I hope you all enjoyed my conversion story. I do know, without a doubt in my heart, that this church is true. I have received so many blessing by being a member. I have found my true love, who I am sealed to forever in the temple, and I have felt the spirit so many times. The Lord has led us all over the country as we have prayerfully made decisions about where we need to go for school and such. I have made the best friends but the most wonderful part about it is that wherever we live I know that I am going to have an instant family at church! The lessons are the same, the callings are the same, and everyone serves for one general purpose.... to build up the Kingdom of God on Earth.

Friday, November 10, 2006

For me???

Today "B" had the day off from work so I just let him do his thing. He had to prepare a talk for Sunday and go visit the girls at school for lunch. I took the boys with me to run some errands. When I returned these beautiful roses were waiting for me on the counter. I don't know how long it has been since he bought me flowers, at least 2 years!! What a sweet husband. I think he has seen how I've been feeling these past couple of days and wanted to do something nice.
On another note.... I went to Bath & Bodyworks and got myself a gift from my kids. Hee hee. They had those soft robes that you could get for a discounted price with your purchase so I bought one. I figured that I needed a good one for the hospital since I will be there for so many days!! I also got some of their hand soap which was only $2.50 each. We live off of those and they smell so yummy.

Second thoughts....

Here I am with only 3 weeks and 5 days to go and I am starting to have second thoughts about having a c-section. My last three were very successful vbacs. I was reading some information last night on c-sections and I didn't know that I couldn't pick up anything besides the baby for the first 6 weeks. How am I going to manage my family?? Bryan will only be home for the first week after I get home from the hospital and then I will be completely on my own. Now that the time is getting closer I feel the need to dig deep in prayer and thought and figure out what exactly would be the best thing to do. I could always just attempt another vbac and then if it isn't successful go ahead and have the c-section. The reason why we decided a c-section this time is that it just felt right. "B" prayed about it and also came to that conclusion. I haven't received a direct answer yet but I have not really asked that question. I guess I am just really scared. I am going to be a mom of 5 children. How can I expect to do all that I am required to do if I am recovering from major surgery?? It's probably just because the time is getting so close that all my fears are setting in. Is it normal to be scared to have my 5th child?? I've never been this nervous before any birth besides my first. Yesterday was just an emotional day as I was thinking about all of this.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

4 weeks to go!!

I am trying to think of something to write because so many things have happened but my mind is a blank. I have 4 weeks to go until I deliver our new baby boy. Today I folded and put away all the baby clothes. They are all organized in their rightful containers and look so perfect. I have everything ready for when he arrives. I have the diapers, wipes, nursing pads, rubbing alcohol, nose thingy, etc. The only thing I will need when the baby gets here is food. It's funny because we just got a brand new freezer and it has about a week's worth of dinners for us but I am not motivated to fill it more. I was yesterday but today has just felt overwhelming.

Tonight I was just having an emotional moment where I was crying for no reason (hormones). My little 4 year old "A" came up to me and just started rubbing my back saying "I love you mommy. You are the bestest mommy in the entire world. I like the cards you make. We just HAVE to have cards, you know". Well, after that I couldn't even cry, I just had to smile. He is going to make the best husband some day. He might drive me batty during the day because he has soo much energy but it is times like these that I know he has his sweet side, too. I am so grateful for my family. It's just so hard being pregnant in the last phase. I just look around my house and see so many projects that I want to do but I know that I "can't" do them. It's so hard for me to get on all fours to pick up stuff so I just have to let it sit there which drives me crazy. I know in the end it is not going to matter. I also hear women with grown children say how they miss the mess. I guess I can't really see that yet because the kids leave messes EVERYWHERE!!

For Young Womens tonight the Miamaids & Beehives did a Yoga tape. I made smoothies for everyone which was a HUGE success. I made enough so we could also share with the Young Men and other leaders. I am so glad that all my batches turned out good. Sometimes they don't work out as well.

Monday, November 06, 2006

Mmmmmm. Apple Pie!!!


I just finished making my first apple pie using our left over food storage. Our Apple Chips are going to go bad in the next few months so I decided to try to use them. I have NEVER made a pie from scratch before. I hope it tastes as good as it looks. We are going to have it for our Family Home Evening treat tonight. Yippee!!! I feel like such a homemaker!!!

Deep thoughts...

Last night "B" took a friend to the Gladys Night presentation that our church was holding at our Stake Center so I was to myself and my deep thoughts. After the kids were in bed I sat in my office making cards for people and listening to General Conference of April 2005. It seemed like every talk was written just for me. I learned many things but it seems like I forgot a lot this morning. I wish I would have taken notes last night. One talk that really hit me was about being kind. I made a decision that I was not going to raise my voice to my children or get angry at silly little things. Even if someone does me wrong, or if the check-out person at the store is grumpy, why should I let that effect how "I" treat others?? This morning I did not get upset or grouchy with my girls once while they were getting ready for school. That is a really hard task especially since my 6 yr old does many things that would make anyone's blood rise. I just talked to her calmly and asked her to do the things she was supposed to be doing. It is amazing that she didn't get sassy with me once!! We usually have a major struggle each and every morning. It is all about how I react because she just reflects my mood. Listening to these spiritual talks from Apostles of the Lord made me just really think. I need to change NOW! I know it is so hard to do this while I am pregnant but I am sure going to try. I'm not going to give up and give in to my negative thoughts and attitudes. I am going to be the "kind" of personal I want to be. I am going to stop comparing myself to others. When I finally went to bed last night I turned to my scriptures and it is amazing that the passage I was reading just reinforced what the talks all said.

I hope that all made sense. I am really tired this morning so it might just seem like ramblings. Guess what?? I am determined to get all my laundry done today!! Do you think I can do it??? My family would be in shock! It's just so hard to carry those heavy baskets and walk up and down the stairs. BUT, I can do it! The pioneers had to endure so much more than doing laundry when they were pregnant!

Catching up.....


Yesterday
I taught Young Women's yesterday and here is the frame that I stamped for all the girls to take home and put up. My lesson was on Worthy Thoughts. There was a lot of participation so we only got through a little bit but that is the way the spirit works.

Our Freezer
"B" went out and bought us a freezer and it arrived on Saturday morning. It is sooo nice having an extra freezer. I went out to Walmart and bought all the frozen things I could think of. We also filled it with the dinners that were made for us when the baby arrives. My plan is to get at least 3 weeks worth of dinners in there for after the baby is born. I know that I am not going to feel like cooking and I think that "B" should also have a break.

Last Night
I woke up in the middle of the night with very strong pains in my stomach that came every 5-7 minutes. I knew it wasn't labor but just an upset stomach. The only bad thing is that they were causing me to contract!! I decided at 4:30 am to just lay on the couch and watch TV or try to sleep. About a half hour later I hear someone behind me and it is "B" fullly dressed. He got up to go to the store to get me some medicine since we were all out. What a total sweet thing to do!! As soon as he got home I took it and I was almost instantly better. He only got to sleep for another half hour before he had to get up to get ready for work. It's moments like those that I know exactly why I love him so much. I might complain and nag (A LOT) but deep down in my heart I know that I could never find anyone better than him.

Friday, November 03, 2006

It's been 2 months.....

It has been two months since I officially resigned from Stampin' Up! What a fun ride I had while I was on it. I do miss a lot of things about being a demo but I am also enjoying just stamping for fun. Today, while I was finishing up my 59 sets of gift sets for Christmas, I looked around my Stamp Loft and was so grateful that I earned most of the product by being a demonstrator. I cannot even imagine what life would have been like if I never got to experience the business side of things. I learned that I can do anything I put my mind to. I started off at the bottom of the SU totem pole as a hobby demo and by the end of my first full year I had made it a success. Not only that but we moved 2 times during my years at the top and I was able to prove to myself that I could continue to be successful. I am very happy with my decision to retire but I am also so glad that I had the opportunity that I did. I made many friends along the way and got to know the ins and outs with Stampin' Up! as I worked on the Advisory Board for a year. I just want to log this all down in case I forget all about it in a year or two. My family really has needed me at home for the past two years while I finished out my business helping my downline out. Now that I am free of all strings with SU life is different. I find that I am not as stressed out or have that feeling of guilt that I had so often when thinking of my large group and all that I "needed" to be doing. I feel so blessed that my SU family "downline" understood my decision and was very supportive. I have formed relationships that I will have for a lifetime!

That is all I wanted to share about that.

Thursday, November 02, 2006

A special memory....


In the course of my 5 1/2 year Stampin' Up! career I earned 3 Cruises. I decided to take my Grandma on my 2nd cruise to Alaska. It was such a special time that I will remember always. She had just celebrated her 81st birthday and had never been on a cruise. She doesn't even like to fly much. We spent a lot of time getting to know each other and just hanging out. I think our favorite time on the cruise was watching all the shows they put on. She also got to meet many of my Stampin' Up! friends. It is a memory that I will have forever.

Me and My Sis!

Here is a pic of me and my sis at Stampin' Up!'s convention in Orlando, Florida 2 1/2 years ago. Aren't we soooo cute?? I love my sister and I miss her. It's funny because when we were growing up we NEVER played together and we are only 2 1/2 years apart. It just seemed like she was so much older than me. Once she got married and became a mother we started forming a friendship. Over the last 12 years I have looked to her many times for advice and friendship. I would have to say that she is my bestest friend in the whole world!! I just wish we lived closer so we could hang out. One thing that I love about my sis is how patient she is. Who did she get that from?? Almost everyone in our family has a quick temper besides her. She is an example in the way she treats others, too. Hopefully I can be like her some day in that way. Love you, Sis!!

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

What a SURPRISE!!!

Tonight for Young Womens we met at the Pres's house for a mother daughter night. The Pres wouldn't assign me anything to help with which is odd since I like to have something to do. When I got there I found out that it was a surprise baby shower for me!!! All the Young Women came with their mothers and they brought me a meal to put in my freezer for when the baby arrives. They also all did a craft of painting special onesies and burp clothes for me and the baby. We played games, ate a nice dinner, and opened a few gifts. I feel so honored to serve in the Young Women. I feel so close with all of those girls and I love them all like they are my own. This is the first time I've ever served in YW and now I hope that I can do it forever!! We have a special bond and it is wonderful. I am still in shock that they would do this night for me. The Pres did a lot of work and so did the leaders. What a night!!!

What I've been doing....

The matching pens!
Upclose journal

25 journals that I made!


Here are the journals & pens that I made for the Young Women and leaders in our ward. We are giving them journals to write their testimonies in and any faith-promoting experiences. It took me a while to make these but they were so fun. They make great gifts. The patterned paper cost more than the composition books!! I think each journal cost around $2 to make. Some were more some were less, it depended on which paper I used. I think they turned out so cute!!







5 weeks to go!!

5 weeks from today I will no longer be a mom of just 4 but a mom of 5. I still can't fathom that. I grew up in a non-LDS home with a family of 4 kids and we were the ones with a huge family! Life was different back then. My mom worked and I don't have a lot of memories of being home during the day. I do remember playing during the summer outside in our house with 1 1/2 acres in Battleground, Washington. Those are the best memories of my life. I don't know why we ever had to move from there when I was 12 but that was a sad time for me. I hope that my kids make memories of their childhood to last them forever. I hope I am doing enough for them as a mom to make sure that happens.

Last night the kids went Trick or Treating with "B". We realized an hour before that our pumpkin was still in the back of our car and we had not carved it yet. We had planned on doing it for FHE this week but ended up doing something entirely different. So, we popped that baby out of the car and did the fastest carving you can imagine. The kids still had a blast doing it and I got my pictures for the scrapbook. Even if we wait until the last minute we still try to get those traditions in there.

I'll have more later......

Monday, October 30, 2006

I must be crazy!!

I just cleaned out my garage and found all the baby stuff. I also found an ENTIRE bin filled with 18 month summer clothes. Uggggggg!!! "T" could have totally used them. I ended up buying him a bunch this summer because I just didn't think we had many for "A". He is 22 months now and it is getting cold out so I just went ahead and packed them back up along with his 18 month clothes that he wears now. What a waste!! If I was more organized I would have known exactly what was in that bin! I've been sorting today, cleaning, and preparing. It just seems like I have so much yet to do.

On the bright side, I get to buy a new baby swing because ours is pretty old and has served it's time. I just love buying new baby accessories. With our first 3 children we could not afford to buy anything so almost everything was hand-me-downs or from my baby showers. I didn't get a baby shower with "T" so we just bought what we needed. I bought my first basinet and changing table and he was baby number 4!! I am pretty prepared with this one. I just had to buy a new car seat because our last one had been through a lot of babies and was just getting rickety. I wanted a new one! I just love little baby outfits. I can't wait to finish sorting through them today to see what I have and what I still need. Maybe I'll get the final things this weekend. We will see.

I really have been trying to be careful today but I just needed to clean out my entire garage. You couldn't even walk through it. I have it swept out and everything back in it's rightful place. I think that is one of the main jobs I do every fall. Clean our garage!! I remember doing it last year the day after Thanksgiving. The kids were so happy to have a place to ride their bikes again. I'm sure the girls will be happy when they get home today because they will be able to play in there.

Do Not Run....

I am reminded of a scripture in D&C 10:4 today which reads: "Do not run faster or labor more than you have strength..." I woke up with one goal in mind. To get my house in order!! I have laundry to do, bathrooms to clean, and I want to get the baby stuff ready and out of the garage. I woke up feeling great. In fact, I didn't have to take any pain meds at all yesterday or last night. My pubic bone felt fine. Well, this morning, after only one load of dishes and one load of laundry I am exhausted!! It's sooo weird because I have this desire to do it all but my body really will not cooperate. Normally it is the other way around and I don't feel like doing chores. I just don't want to go into preterm labor again but I need to get this stuff done. I know that I am the only person who will do it like I want it so I should just do it, right?? I guess I could just take little breaks in between. The only problem with that is that once I am sitting or laying down I usually don't want to get back up. I don't want to have to take any pain meds today, I want to do it on my own!! I want to know if my body is overdoing it by feeling the pain.

Sunday, October 29, 2006

M is for Mullet!


Here is our "M" wearing her dad's Halloween wig. A MULLET!! It's funny because I went to school with kids who had hair just like this. I guess that makes me pretty old. That was in the 70's & 80's.

Her first talk....

"K" wrote her first talk for Primary yesterday. We did not help her at all. Usually "B" will just write it for her and she'll just read it. We put her in charge of it and she did great. She will have 1 minute in the Primary Program and they start practicing next week. Here is what she wrote. I didn't even correct the spelling because she is the only one who will read it.......

"Hi,my name is "K",and I was chosen to give a talk about Jesus Christ.In Alma 5:27it says”Have ye walked,keeping yourselvs blamles before God?Could ye say, if ye were called to die at this time,within yourselves, that ye have been sufficiently humble?That your garments have been cleansed and made white through the blood of Christ, who will come to redeem his people from their sins?”Jesus was our savoir ,and I want to share a storie about when I got lost in the pool ,well I was swimming in a twister pool with my cosens.We were play tag in the water then suddenly they were gone.I didn’t know what to do,but then I remembered to say a prayer. Then suddenly I found one of my cosens. She looked so sad. I asked her little quetons every single answer was no. I said,”What happened”? She just ignored me and finally she answered I was so shocked of what she said.She said that my cosen hert her feelings.When I got to see my aunt I was so happy because I got to see my cosens again. I want you to know that Hevenly Father answers our prayers,and Jesus and Hevenly Father will lead us to our path that will make our lives joyfull and in the name of Jesus Christ,Amen."

Can you believe she wrote that all by herself?? I think it is sweet and touching and will help her out in life because this is the first step for formulating her own opinions and ideas. I am so very happy that she is a part of our family!!

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Monkeys on the brain!!

I've been doing a little "wink, wink" project tonight that has to do with monkeys and a whole lot of them. They are really cute and I just love to stamp with them!!

Here is a random thought I have. Do you keep crayons that are broke in half and little nubs?? I was just cleaning out my kids crayon/marker drawer and I noticed a bunch of really old crayons that were only like 1 inch long and that didn't even have the wrapper anymore. You know what?? I just tossed them!! I'm sure that it is very wasteful but I also got a bunch of packs for .10 after school started. I don't think I could ever work with a broken crayon. It's like when I hear of someone breaking up their Watercolor Wonder Crayons. I just cringe. It would take all my creativity away from me.

Today when I was at Target I saw sets of Cabbage Patch Kids Newborn baby clothes for $12 a set. I almost grabbed two of them but my girls were with me. Then later when I was at the Dollar Tree they had Newborn baby clothes for $1 each!! I'm sure they won't last as long but I was able to get 3x's as many as I would have at Target. I also got little fleece receiving blankets for each of my kids. Here is what we are doing when we have the baby...... I got each of my kids (even the boys) a newborn baby Cabbage Patch Kid boy. They were tough to find but I got all 4 of them!! I am going to bring them to the hospital with me when I go for my C-section and then when the kids come to visit me and the baby later that day they will all be given their very own newborn baby along with a diaper bag. In the diaper bag I am going to put in these little outfits, some premie baby diapers, the receiving blanket and just some little knick-knack things for babies. I hope this will help them with the transition and just have fun with it. I'm really excited about it!!

Good night everyone!
Well, we got through the book report and now it's on to our 1 minute talk for the Primary Program. I think that she is getting it and will not wait until the last moment next month.

I have just felt GREAT today. I have not even had to take a Tylenol yet. I went grocery shopping, took my kids to the Dollar Tree, and to Target. Now I get to work on some fun stuff for Young Womens. I think I will actually be okay and not have an early baby. Thank goodness. I just need to know my limits.

"M" just went to a birthday party at Pump It Up for a friend in her class. She was so excited and couldn't believe I actually said yes. "B" didn't have to work today so I felt that I could do more things. When "B" has to work on Saturdays I say no to almost everything extra. It is just too much for me to lug all the kids around and worry about everything that goes along with it. "B" only has 3 more Saturdays to work and then he will be with us. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! Can I throw a party. He has only been working 2 Saturdays a month for the past 18 months but it has taken a toll on me. When he works on a Saturday I literally get no break at all during the week. I have to take care of the kids for most of the day on Sunday as well, until he gets home from church. It is just a sacrifice we have all had to make and it has been worth it. Today he got to watch football almost uninteruppted. He folded and put away all my many baskets of clean clothes that have been piling up. For some reason I can wash them but putting them away is soooo hard. It just takes so much work!!

I'll update more later. Maybe I'll even have some deep thoughts to add.

Friday, October 27, 2006

Pressures On.....

Why is it that everytime "K" has an assignment at school it seems like she waits until the last minute. At what age do they actually take responsibility and do it themselves?? She has her monthly book report due on Monday and I have bugged her about it for two weeks now. Looks like we will be working on it tomorrow. I want her to understand how important it is in life to do things in advance so you are not stressed out at the last minute. I learned the hard way but it has taught me to be early for everything, including meetings & church. I want my kids to learn these same values. She is only in 3rd grade but I don't want to hold her hand the rest of her life.

Tonight we babysat for some friends so they could go on a date. My friend "R" has babysat for me all week for my appointments, etc. It was the least we could do. I don't mind at all. Her kids are really easy and "A" has someone to run around and play with.

Today I sat and stamped a lot! I am working on making sets of cards for my friends here & some church members. I think I am making around 50 sets of 6 cards this year. I think I am almost done, believe it or not. It's around 300 cards with matching envelopes that I end up making but I just love to stamp so much that I enjoy doing it. Plus, I just love how they love receiving them. I don't know what I will work on once I am done with this project. I have already finished my Christmas cards and birth announcements. I need to work on some journals for the Young Women, too. I guess I will do that next.

What is it about a clean kitchen that can make or break your mood?? I feel soooo good when I keep my kitchen clean. When it is dirty I just feel yucky inside and it makes me not want to clean it. I just finished doing the dishes and now I just need to wipe the counters. I'm sure this is very dull information but it is something I want to remember about me later. This is sort of like my journal now. Of course, I'll leave all the juicy stuff to my real journal but everything else will go on here.

Update...

I tried to update earlier but something happened and it wouldn't post. Here is the 411 on my life since Wednesday.....

Trunk or Treat
I decided to go to our ward party on Wednesday night because I was feeling better. I'm so glad I went. I dressed up as a Hawaiian prego lady with a hula skirt and everything. My hubby dressed as a Hawaiian beach bum. He actually ended up looking like an Oklahoma beach bum because he bought a mullet instead of just surfer hair. It was pretty funny. "K" was Geneivere, "M" was a cheerleader, "A" was a Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtle, and "T" was a cute little Tigger from Winnie the Pooh. They had so much fun running around the gym and playing the games that were set up.

Thursday
I had my ob appointment in the morning and my doctor said everything looked great. I was only effaced to 25% and not 50% like they told me in the hospital. I guess that makes a little difference. I am still dilated to a 1 but that is pretty normal for someone who has had 4 other pregnancies. He told me that I am not restricted at all. I was hoping that he would tell me that I couldn't do any chores but no such luck!! He said to sit with my feet up twice a day to relax. I choose to sit for 2 hours a day and stamp! That's my therapy.

I am so glad that I can be pretty much back to normal. I can't even imagine being put on bedrest and having 6 weeks left to go. That would be sooo hard. What a blessing!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Should I stay or should I go now????

I'm thinking I might want to go tonight, just to get out of the house. I should be okay if I just don't walk around much and take it easy. I just don't want to miss this with my kids. They are going to have so much fun. I am making some cupcakes right now for our booth. (Really not that much effort!) When DH gets home he has to start the chilli and then he needs to run to the store and get himself a costume and some candy to pass out tonight. I guess you could call us "unprepared" but we've had a long week/weekend.

Officially taking it easy today....

I've decided that I just need to do what the hospital said and just take it easy. I think I did too much yesterday morning and I really paid for it in the afternoon and evening. I just feel really slothful doing nothing. The weather here doesn't help either. It's very overcast and just yucky. I think it might even be raining. I've decided to stay home tonight from our Ward's Trunk or Treat. I just don't feel up to walking around and socializing. I'm keeping my toddler at home because he still is a little stuffy and has a tummy ache. He is such a sweet thing and I've been able to snuggle with him a lot lately. I hope he doesn't feel pushed aside when this baby is born. I love all of my children sooo much. I really hope they know that.

Here are my list of things I need to finish in the next few days......
*Make goodie bags for my girls Fall Party on Friday
*Start preparing my lesson for next Sunday
*Make chili for tonight's chili cookoff
*Remember to have my DH pick up cupcakes for tonight's booth
*Make sure the kids and DH get there early tonight to help set up
*etc.,etc., etc

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

Today is a new day!

I'm going to "try" to take it easy today but there are sooo many things that I want to do and get done. It's not like my house is a mess but I just have little projects that are sitting there. I am going to "try" to relax a bit because I don't want my contractions to start again. I'm watching a couple of my friend's children today while she goes to the dentist. They are really easy kids so it is no problem. I really want to get my birth announcements done today but we will see if I even make it up the stairs today.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Feeling Better

Well, it's 10 pm and I am feeling so much better. The contractions really slowed down and now I only have a few an hour. I was even able to sit and design my birth announcements. This has really got me to think about all that I need to do in the next 6 weeks. I JUST ordered some nursing bras today and if I am feeling better this weekend I am going to pull out the baby clothes and wash them. I'm sure I can do that while sitting down. The doctor was more concerned about me picking up my kids than anything. I can still hold them on my lap and I did that a lot tonight. My kids are soooo sweet. I know they are going to be a big help when this little baby gets here in a month and a half.

Good night! Thanks for the kind comments. I will definitely let you come over and help me, Shawna, when I am having a tough day. I am hoping to feel as good as I do tonight for the next 6 weeks!!

Robyn

Bed Rest....

This morning I woke up and still had contractions so I called my doctor. He told me to head on over to labor and delivery to be monitored. When I got there the contrations were pretty regular so they gave me a shot of brethine, and then another shot of it a few hours later. They checked to see if I was dialating or effacing and I am 50% effaced and dialated to a 1. The doctor seems to think everything will be okay so they gave me some more meds and sent me home with restricted rest. I cannot pick up my 22 month old or walk around much. I look around my house and see all that I need to do. I really hope that I can get back to normal soon. I am sooo not ready for an early baby.

That's my update!!

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Contractions!

Today has seemed like such a long Sunday. I woke up, got ready for church, and then during Sacrament I started having regular strong BH contractions. I was just not myself. I couldn't even bend over and pick up Thomas when he started throwing a fit during the closing song. By the time we got home today they were 5 minutes apart and pretty strong. I wouldn't really call them painful but I did have to stop what I was doing and just focus on them. As soon as I walked in the door I took a mag pill,layed on my left side and grabbed a huge glass of water. I ended up drinking 2 huge glasses of water. We were getting pretty worried. I took a 3 hour nap and now they are much better. I really think I overdid it last night. I need to start just taking it easy. My body isn't the same as it was with my first three pregnancies.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

Youth Conference

I just got back from Youth Conference and it is 11:30 pm. It was such a neat experience. A long one, but something that I needed to experience. This evening started with a great speaker then a testimony meeting. Here are a few things I learned from that.....
#1- Do not start your testimony by letting the "ladies know you are single and your name is Clint".
#2 - Do not start your testimony by saying "I just got up here to say what you all were thinking. This is long and it needs to be over".
Youth are soooo funny but their spirit is so strong. I found myself wiping away tears many times. This is the "Strength" of Youth that has been saved for these last days. It almost even seemed like a glow was coming from them when they were up on the stand. (That could also have to do with the fact that I left my glasses in the car.)

This afternoon/evening did not start out the best. My DH was trying to get home on time from Walmart with 2 kids and I had the 2 little ones. We decided to meet at the church and switch cars and kids there. I had to run around frantically putting car seats in his car and doing this & that. I almost put myself in labor. Then, when he got to the church I was trying to help him unload the minivan of groceries into his car when I picked up a bag and everything spilled onto the pavement. The Youth were already loaded in my car (filled with old chicken nuggets) while we were finishing this. It all turned out okay but it is so funny how things can try to take away your happy, good mood.

I took a moment during the dance tonight to sit in the foyer and read my scriptures. I was really struck by a passage in Mormon 9:21 which reads
" Behold, I say unto you that whoso believeth in Christ, doubting nothing, whatsoever he shall ask the Father in the name of Christ it shall be granted him; and this promise is unto all, even unto the ends of the earth."
I had to stop and ponder this for a minute. This is a promise unto all of us, even me. Can I really be that faithful?? I guess that is the goal of everyone here on earth, to get to that point.

Thanks for reading this. I've got an early morning so I'd better get to bed.

Aren't kids great??

My 3 oldest kids are outside making a Christmas play by themselves. I just went and watched a little of it and it is soooo cute. I have the greatest kids in the world. I know that I have been annoyed with them lately but I think that was just me. I get sooo different when I am pregnant. I have no patience with anyone. I am just so thankful that Heavenly Father blessed me by letting me raise these sweet little children. They mean more to me than anything.

Last night we went to the Orr Family Farm to pick our pumkins, go on a hayride, ride the train, pet some animals, and eat kettle corn. We went with a new family that we just met. We had a great time. This is the 3rd year we have gone and it will continue to be a family tradition. I took sooo many great pictures there that I can't wait to scrapbook them. I always love to scrapbook our pumpkin patch pictures.

My pregnancy is going okay. I only have around 6 weeks and 3 days to go. I'm counting every minute. I have severe pubic bone pain that I almost can't stand. I'm on some meds so I hope that will help. My doctor is a little concerned about me because of my contractions a week & a half ago. He called me again yesterday to check on me. I have my next appointment on Thursday so I think I will be okay. I really don't want to go into labor early and I definitely don't want to be put on bed rest. I don't think I could do that with my family. They need me to be alert and I need to be alert.

I am grateful to have started this blog. I'm excited to post regularly and also upload some of my card/scrapbook creations. I made a card for my Aunt Nikki today and a couple other girls I know going through chemo due to breast cancer. It turned out really cute. I also finished all my Christmas cards last night. I made 48 but I only think I will need about 35 of them. I just need to do my birth announcements and a few other projects before baby gets here. I'm getting kind of overwhelmed thinking of all I need to do before he comes to our family. I still need to get the "baby" stuff ready. I don't even know which bins they are in. With my last baby I was prepared 3 months in advance. I need to get on the ball.

My hubby has been so wonderful lately. I am so blessed to have married him. He has to put up with so much from me and I think that after 10 years of marriage he finally knows how to handle me. "Handle With Care". I should have sticker on me when I am pregnant. I'm just a hormonal mess!! He has been telling me everyday how beautiful I am and giving me hugs and kisses. He has never done this with any other pregnancy before and I cannot even tell you how much it means to me. He is helping with the Youth Conference today and when he gets back I am going from 3-11 pm tonight. I don't really feel up to it but it's where I need to be.

Okay, I've rambled on enough. If anyone ever reads this they will probably think I am a bore but I just need to do it for me.

Friday, October 20, 2006

A Long Night Ahead.....
This is my official first post on my blog. I came home from HFPE to find that my oldest daughter got her fingers slammed in the door. We don't know if they are broken yet, we are going to wait until the morning. Then, I was getting ready to go to bed and my 4 yr old wakes up crying. He has a sore throat and a stuffy nose. I finially get him settled down and my 22 month old wakes up crying with a runny nose and stuffy head. He is in MY bed now sleeping right where I should be. I really don't even mind. He is still my baby, at least for 7 more weeks. Thoughts on that. I cannot believe I am going to have a newborn in 7 weeks. Am I really ready?? Can I be a good mom to so many kids?? (The baby just kicked so I guess I have his vote :) ) Last night I was reading about Lehi's vision about the tree of life. There are two separate groups who make it to the tree and hold to the rod of iron but one group falls away and the other group does not. I was reading the two parts and comparing them. They both had a hold of the Rod of Iron (scriptures) BUT the first group was "clinging" it, which means they were dilligent and the second group was holding fast to it. I still need to think about this more and digest it. I don't want to dig too deep but this has really been on my mind lately. I hope I can "hold fast" to the iron rod, too. On Monday Bryan taught our Family Home Evening lesson. He taught the children about the plan of salvation and the 3 degrees of glory. They have sooo many questions. I know that our Father in Heaven sent down the most valiant spirits in these last days. They have sooo much they will need to go through that we cannot even imagine. I hope I can do my part as a mother in Zion to prepare them.